Fight of my Life

As He entered the room I was shook. I couldn't understand , "why was he so upset about the pregnancy?" He grabbed me by my neck and whispered "Ima kill the baby, then you", He punched me in my stomach and I fell to the floor. I tried to jump up but he grabbed me by my hair and dragged me across the floor.

I sat there, fearing for my life, I scanned the room for something that could be an weapon. There he was 6'5, man of my dreams!! now trying to murder meee!!

 I pleaded out "please Justin, please don't kill us" , " Nah Its your time" , he punched me in my mouth , as he tooted another line of cocaine. I was in so much pain. I spit out an mouth full of blood. I though to myself this is it. I am about to die.

I brushed off the though of death and started to fight back. I grabbed the tissue holder and "whamm", right up side his head. He fell then I took off running. I reached for the door and  he was right behind me, He gripped me firmly from behind holding me in an choke hold. I thought to myself "not  death", I kicked him as hard as i could in his balls, his grip loosened. I scrammed out, I ran to the bathroom and locked the door.

My phone was on the floor. I picked it up and pressed 911 , he kicked the door open and lounged at me I move and he slammed right into the tub. I ran out the bathroom grabbed me keys and drove of never to return again.

In the end I choose life not death !!  We all have the fight in us, dont wait until its too late to choose life !!

Successful People

Dealing with life can be very difficult. I am now learning what was always there, prayer. Facing issues with family is what I have been dealing with. They are full of drama and gossip. They cause issues that can be avoided. I always question my actions to make sure it’s not me. Praying daily for change for them both. To be more optimistic and make wiser decisions. To move forward and have grace about themselves. People are who they are tho. You can take them to a place of refuge and give them the keys to life. Only they can make it happen. Make the correct choices with the tools provided 

I am not proud of myself, only because I want to be more successful and master success. I am leaning now that everyone is not on your level, therefore everyone cannot make it to the top with you. Rather its family, friends, lovers, if their actions are not positive or moving in your direction it can detour you from progress.

Feeling attacked can cause you to be weak/ causing you to always feel like a victim, when indeed you are the victor. Facing new changes, trials, tribulations can also cause this feeling of weakness as well. As I look back over my life and I think things over, I can truly say I’ve been blessed I have a TESTIMONY!!

I testify that I have been through a lot this year. I have had the support of GOD. I talk with friend but no one can solve or comfort me like him. I try to express my thoughts, feelings, and begin to the holy spirit and Christ. To continue to comfort me in my time of trouble. Help me make sound decision. Forgive me for my sins and things I do that I know you don’t approve of. Help me become a better person, mother.

Praying for better can push things and people out the way.(out your life) You can feel isolated. But now I feel weird. Have I grown to another mental level to where I feel like I have to change my group of “friends” in order to excel to the next level? These are choices that successful people and business minded people make daily/ whom all seem sad, but has to face reality that no one will love you or do for you like yourself.

 No one supports my dreams, relationships, goals, I know god does. He’s just not tangible, not touchable, no face to face, no instant replies, only patience and knowledge to know he is there listening and watching your every move. Protecting you, guiding you, even in your place of darkness. Reassurance comes through tribulations, which only comes through trails.

In the end all things are possible and whether it’s good or bad you will grow from it all.

~Tiessia Paschell~ 

Are you an victim of today’s society!?

Today’s world is being molded to judge and bully. I say I am a bully of this election. I have no potential candidates to vote for and I’m being forced to vote. The election, to me is a mockery. It has no solid details on what one plans to do about minorities, yet they all depend on our vote?!! It has no detailed info on our troops, foreign policies, outsourcing, mass incarceration, ect.

I’m affected by the fact that FB seems to be more than a social media. Its shows the lives of people, how they think, move, breathe. People really give access to their entire world. Personal issues that get revealed on FB. It breaks up families, reveals pedophiles, and most sadly, it show the true soul of a person who is really indulged/intrigued with social media.

The internet is setup as a distraction. Majority of the billionaires and founders who create theses “distractions”, do not indulge in them nor let their kids use it, they only make money from it. The eyes are the closes thing to the brain and they are feeding your brain with all the crap scrolling down your “timeline”, Snapchat, IG, and all the other major outlets.

Have you noticed, when you research things they follow you. Its advertisement on your timelines, gmail, google, on things that you research or just search. Do you know all the applications you sign up for on your”smartphone”, have access to your pictures, texts, calls, and any other personal info you have. Did you know that your google map tracks your location and saves it in your “timeline”. Even if you don’t use them for directions. It’s scary for me to know this and still have to operate in this world.

 Do you see how the ‘News” outlets portray what they want you to see. How they shed light on the topics that cause hatred to grow or brings negativity to a certain issues. The media has power/ now they gave us power and we still don’t know what to do with it. The world can unit but this social world has created a distance with / hitting like, replacing real support, viewing snap chat/ replacing face to face unions / sitting and reading to children / replaced with YouTube for kids/ family time / replaced with smart phones.

It seems humans are made to all follow the same suite. That we need someone to show us the way. Then there are people like me who don’t need to be shown a way, we make a way, we realize the wrong, we understand the secret meetings Fb has with world renounced leaders. Do you see? Do you see the slight existence of “one world order”, do you see the movement of planet earth being destroyed and the chosen only going to “mars, are are you blind to societies ways and have become an victim of this society. 

Evolving into a BOSS!!

I've been in  place where I have realized that it takes more then a plan to become an BOSS....

You have to put in work, time, and effort, to achieve any dream. To be in charge you have to have discipline. You have to push yourself when no one else will.Tunnel vision is a must. You have to see it form and put in into play.

Putting it into to play is a another ball game. You have to network to get your dream out there. Push it to the limit. That's what stage Im in.Pushing things to the limit. Finding a way for my dreams and talent to be my main stream of income. I know I can do it and so can anyone else. Hard work is all it takes.

If I fail, at least I can say I tried. Then I'd  pick myself up, and try again. Failure is the key to success. You can do what you did wrong,right. I will never give up on my dreams.I will keep pursuing it, until I see it is all completed. I will then profit from it and pass on the knowledge and keys to success.

This is my journey and I have been on a long ride, but once my destination arrives I will be honored and hope to hear the words "Well Done", from my father in heaven. 

Knowledge is Power

 "Knowledge is Power “

Knowing is only have the battle. When you have knowledge of something it’s your choice on what to do with it. Will you ponder on the thoughts of greatness that crosses your mind or will you put that plan into action?

Putting a plan into action requires a lot of work, dedication, devotion, and effort. It can’t happen overnight. It has to be molded (by you) into perfection until it is all complete. There will be times when you want to give up or quit, But don’t.

What I have learned is to put all focus on God and myself. Yes, at time I do over indulge in things that I shouldn’t. But with all my heart I try my best to keep my focus on God, Why? , because he keeps me centered. He keeps my mind focused and steadfast on my goals. He guides me day by day, hour by hour. Never to leave my side, so why should I leave his. He is my companion. The love from him protects me from other, harm, hanging with the wrong people, making bad choices, seeing the good in the bad, being optimistic. He is my everything, I am his child.

If you have faith without works then you are going nowhere fast. You have to use the knowledge God has given you to put whatever it is you want to do into action. I am not perfect and I know I fall short of the glory of god, but we all do. I just know I will use my knowledge to take me to the places in life that my heart desires. Success is now my Best Friend, we finally met and might I say it’s been going so swell !!  remember to always put God first !! 

Live On Purpose

Now is the time to complete all things. If you have the power, strength, and access to resources, please utilize them to make a better you.

I am realizing as an adult you have to take control of you. It’s easy to give the little things power, for instance if you, want to stop smoking, drinking, lose weight, be a better person, etc. You have to start a new process, new steps, to get rid of old habits.  In my personal journey to rid myself of these things I realize how much energy I gave to the wrong things. Instead of smoking, I exercise, instead of complaining I pray. I’m substituting new beginnings that I want to keep for a lifetime.

I know that as a women of God I have the option to make choices. I see the flaw in some choices and decisions I’ve made. I decided to do things that harm my body (Temple), I am now thinking in an optimist view. I have minor health problems and if I continue they will become major.  As I laid in the hospital I thought to myself,

“The nurses and doctors around me are nearly my age. Here I lay, sad, and none comprehending of the damage I am doing to self”.

The mind is so powerful. The bible says re-new your thoughts daily. Fill yourself with the word, which will bring you knowledge. That’s exactly what I had to do. Renew some things, Do something different to get results I never had. I am now on a mission to change my life for the good and take 

charge of all the things I can control.

If you’re out there trying to change for the better, continue on that path. God gave us the right to choose. It’s up to us if we choose life or death. I choose Life and to live it with purpose!!

Who am I

WHO AM I ??
I am a mother !! , full of life always alert (for the most part) , ready for my next adventure (as long as its not another child)!! Ready to invest in my child and teach him what I was taught plus more. I am a mother , Fighting with every breath in me to provide, to win, to stay ahead and never get left behind. Loving my child with all the life in me, giving him my life , a life , which ever you want to call it I am a mother.
I am a wife, Loving him until I cant anymore. Vowing my life over to my (Mr.), showing him all the love and sweetness he's entitled to for the rest of his life. I am a wife. I have dinner prepared, clothes prepared, the home in order, bills intact , savings intact, I am a wife. No one can or no one will split this bond, only god is entitled to break us two apart, we don't even have that authority. I am a wife. Dealing with the highs and lows, the sickness and the health, the wealth and the debt, the inns and outs of this marriage , I am a wife.

I am a writer .I write my heart out , all of my pain , sadness , thoughts of frustration , thoughts of guilt , to relief my mind , I am a writer. Writing to make a dollar ($), to live a dream , writing out my dreams, themes , and means of being here, I am a writer .

I am a Leader, leading the lost into what now is found. Finding the lost and showing the light that wasn't so bright. I am a leader , even the ones in position to lead , still I teach them a thing or two.

I am Friend, your friend to the end. So friendly I get played by those who claim they "care", I am a friend, to those who need a genuine  ear, help , or someone to talk to I am a friend.
I am a entrepreneur, never able to work for "the man" , always craving and generating thought after thought of success , how to be , how to find , how to profit off myself. I am an entrepreneur. I dream big , bigger then I can even imagine. Cant sleep at night because I'm wishing for more and wanting to work for my dream to come to pass, I am an entrepreneur .

I am a child of God. Praying on a daily basis . Making sure god gets his time. Thinking cautiously on every decision I make. I am a child of God. He speaks through the spirit , in my dreams, visions, making me aware of all of my surroundings. Showing the enemies face. I am victorious in Gods eye's I am the apple of his eye, he leadth me through green pastures and provides me with comfort on the coldest , loneliest night, I am a child of god, cant you tell look at that smile , the health I'm in , the wealth I'm in , and all I want to do is serve. Be a servant, help those in need. I am a child of god.

I am Tiessia Paschell , these are the pieces of me that make me whole !!