Burning Passion

When you have dreams , goals , and ambitions you will never be truely happy until its all accomplished. I stroll down FB , IG, and only see potenial clients. If i riding  , i'm looking at property on what could be a great business venture for me. I have all this knowledge clogged up inside waiting to burst out. I have a mind of knowledge , but its getting me no where if i cant use it. I recently had a lot of major things happend to me. Like on the inside im torn all up because i want things and i'm  willing to work for them , but it  seems that all the things coming my way are very difficult to deal with. Its stressful. It's so hard for me right now. I wish  I was born wealthy , but i wasn't. I was born in a working family. We have to work for what we want period. I look at the world so different. I look at people who make excuses different. If  i  had the  time , the money , people around me I would make  my dream happen. My time is so consumed , even with that I'm still willing to  make  effort day by day , but I lack resources. I'm sitting here writing my heart out as much as possible.  Thats why people who have every weak excuse in the world of why they can't and the avenue is clear for take off make my stomach turn.If your able to do it for people like me  who have to  take a seat back and wait patiently for there time to come.  I feel so lost, I feel lonely , I know god is real but i still wonder where  he's at and whats his plan for me . I dont have my  dreams no more , if i do it shows me  being under attack by  demons. Its just not my season  , but oh' how I wish it was. I wish I could shine as  bright as the stars and moon at night. I wish I could glide through this world like the birds in the sky , or flow with the wind like the trees. I wish I could move like the waves in the ocean with a constant flow. I want to  grow like  the flowers in spring time. The things I want in my life are a burning passion inside of me. I feel my skin melting and head spinning from the burning passion inside. I want  to tell the world Help ME !! , I WANT TO WIN. I'm a child of God. He said we will have our hearts desires , if we belive , have faith , and keep  moving in the  right direction.Im waiting on It. This is  the  testimony of my life. all of me is being tested. even my faith. I will continue to walk by faith , regaudless